One minute he was there, and the next minute he wasn’t.
I got the clothes he was wearing back and some bits and pieces from his car. That was it.
That’s what people don’t realise about knife and gang crime.
When it comes down to it, whether you’re shot or stabbed, if you die, there’s nothing left for anyone, for your family to remember you by.
For a lot of these youths it’s all about being the big man on the street and impressing their peers.
It’s all about refusing to back down, not losing face.
But when I stand at that cemetery week after week, one thing that is very noticeable is this all the graves are the same size and look the same.
Nobody visiting the cemetery cares about what that person’s status was on the street when they were alive – everyone is lying in the same size grave.
I always said to Isaac and his siblings, never ever carry a knife.
The moment you do, you’re putting yourself at risk of getting yourself into a situation when you might be tempted to use it.
It’s either your life or someone else’s that’s going to be lost.
Isaac didn’t have a weapon on him when he died, and young people might use the argument that he could’ve defended himself if he had.
But I’m glad he didn’t have a knife on him.
Yes he might have lived. But he might still have died. And someone else might have died too.
Another parent might have had to go through what I have.
It’s just not worth it. You’re either going to lose your life by going to prison – or you’re going to lose your life and end up dead. It’s as simple as that.
When Isaac died so many of his friends were broken. They don’t understand grief or death as they haven’t experienced it before, let alone at that level. That’s when I realised there’s nothing for that age group, no alternative.
But I’d urge young people not to be tempted into this way of life, and to leave the weapon at home.
Your mum is going to be the one in the court room.
Your mum is going to be the one at the grave.
Your mum is going to be the one sitting there crying, not understanding how her life has come to this.
And you’re not going to be there for your mum.
It’s just not worth it.
Isaac just loved life and it’s been cruelly taken from him.
Thanks to those four men and a knife, he’ll never play football again.
There’ll be no more music from him.
He’ll never get married, never have a career, and never have children of his own.
And my life will never be the same.
This is the final post in a series of blogs by Yvette Lendore, the mother of Isaac Stone who was murdered in January 2014.
Yvette has spoken out in support of the Bedfordshire Police campaign against serious youth violence and knife crime.